Our inner "ness"

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     Humans, for the most part, are social creatures. I mean, sure, we all like our "alone time"  but doesn't a beer taste better when you are sharing the moment with someone who makes you laugh? Isn't shopping more fun when you have someone to be honest when you ask if your butt looks big in the "fabulous" jeans you found? My friends are priceless.
     There is a group of people I met when I lived here the first time that I've kept in touch with throughout the years. I took care of their babies when they attended the preschool I worked at and friendships developed. They knew me when I was married to the Marine and picked me up when I wasn't any more.  They've been there for me countless times over the past year as I struggled to regain my life back, buy a house and settle down. They accept my spunk, think I'm funny and tell me over and over that I'm "a catch" and the right one is out there somewhere.... they bring back my "inner ness" when I lose it. And over the past 2 weeks, I think I did lose it for a while. That seems to be the thing with starting over, one day you are going along just fine and the next you begin to question and doubt everything.
      I wasn't going to go out last night. I was tired, I was feeling a little down and really just wanted to curl up with fuzzy slipper socks and my pj's. But moments with no kids, no work and a total night off are a rarity in my life.....so I broke out the "party clothes" and went and had a great time with the people who have been there for me through thick and thin. I left last night feeling more like myself than I had in a very long time. Another friend, who I know through work, got back into town last night and called me on my way home to invite me to dinner tonight. We ended up talking while I drove so I wouldn't fall asleep and  during the conversation he asked how I had lost my voice. I laughed and said I had been singing and dancing with friends all night. He stated said he didn't realize I did either of those things.  Of course I do, I replied... I had just forgotten how.
     I hope someday that I meet someone who makes me feel all the time the way I feel with these people. Happy, playful, sexy, a little wild,  fun....and full of "ness."
     Thanks guys.